“When you have removed the two factors that are destructive to relationships — when the pain-body has been transmuted and you are no longer identified with mind and mental positions — and if your partner has done the same, you will experience the bliss of the flowering of relationship. Instead of mirroring to each other your pain and your unconsciousness, instead of satisfying your mutual addictive ego needs, you will reflect back to each other the love that you feel deep within, the love that comes with the realization of your oneness with all that is. This is the love that has no opposite.” – Eckhart Tolle
I remember that late Summer evening like it was yesterday… the way that the stars shined brighter than usual, and how the humid night air was saturated with anticipation and desire. I could literally feel my cheeks flush the brightest shade of crimson as I neared your house. My limbs began trembling the moment I turned into your driveway. In fact, I don’t think I’ve ever been more nervous about meeting anyone in my life!
It was the strangest feeling though because, for as anxious as I was, I felt more like I was reconnecting with an old flame rather than meeting someone new. I felt as though our hearts had traveled parallel to one another for many lifetimes, yet never crossed paths; at least not to our recollection. Oh, but that dream we shared…the silent lucidity I experienced that somehow, you had a very detailed account of… my vision of a sacred reunion between kindred spirits that only my soulmate could possibly be aware of. The tale of lost lovers whose hearts were returning home, miraculously, you dreamt it too. Yet there I was, about to meet you for the very first time.
One last look of approval in the rearview mirror revealed tiny sweat beads glistening across my forehead. “Get it together girl!” I told myself as a struggled to regain my composure. I took a deep breath and walked to your front door with no clue about what to expect next. As the door opened, my heart began to beat a mile a minute. The moment the moonlight lit up your face, every monarch butterfly nestled safely in the depths of my belly hastily emerged from their cocoons. The familiarity I felt the moment we locked eyes was soothing to my soul. Standing there before me in the darkness was the silhouette of everything I have ever wanted in a partner. That moment was absolutely electrifying!
We had spent hours talking everyday for weeks prior to us actually meeting in person, but nothing could prepare me for what I felt when our energies finally collided. It was unlike anything I have ever experienced, and the timing of it all seemed so wrong. I was in the process of trying to rebuild my life from the smoldered ruins I was rising from. I felt like I was not even half the woman you deserved me to be. I have often wondered how you, someone so real, so authentic, so kind and inspirational, so smart and handsome, so well put together, could possibly want someone like me. But somehow, you saw me for me. You saw beyond the hardened exterior to the soft-hearted soul beneath. You saw the woman who shared her love freely with others, but struggled to share it with herself. You saw the scared little girl that was still hiding behind the brick wall she built around her heart. You saw a compassionate soul still trying to follow her path to the light. You saw what lived beneath those masks I wore for my protection, and you accepted me, ALL of me.
From that pivotal moment in time forward, we have been inseparable. Our hearts were intertwined by the red thread of fate long before we even knew it. As cliché as the phrase “love at first sight” may be, we are living proof of its existence. We have spent the last year learning everything we can about each other, growing together, making beautiful memories and turning our house into a home filled with love and laughter. Your angelic son has become as much a part of me as he would if I had given birth to him myself. The feeling of joy I experience in the presence of you two is beyond comparison and I am forever grateful for that privilege.
Now here we are, making plans for our future, standing hand in hand as we move gracefully through all of life’s tests. You have proven to me that there is absolutely nothing that we cannot get through together. You have been my backbone when my limbs were trembling, my rock when the waters got rough, my coach when I needed motivation, and my comforter when I had enough. You have been my biggest supporter and my favorite muse and I cannot wait until the day that we exchange our “I dos.”
Dena Daigle & Cory Creppel – Engaged 11/11/17